Here's what I learned:
Trust God, Not Your Emotions.
Isaiah 43:1-2 says, “Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters, I will be with you.” God positioned other friends to encourage me to see myself as a worthy friend and a beautiful person. It came down to seeing the value and beauty God put inside of me even when my life said the opposite. I didn’t really trust God in these circumstances before because I had nothing to base it on. God’s character and His thoughts toward me are a strong foundation.
Let Jesus Have Dominion.
Even though I was sure we were meant to be friends, I had to let that go so Jesus could heal me and the brokenness in our friendship. In my heart I had to be at peace with never having the friendship I thought we should. In turn, to be a person who can love when God says, without requiring it back. Isaiah 43:18 (NLT) says, “But forget all that- it is nothing compared to what I am going to do. For I am about to do something new.” Let God make things new; He has a better vision of things than you.
The Bible is Treasure.
Let the Holy Spirit speak truth to trample the lies of the enemy when wrong thinking comes. I wrote out declarations/truths in my phone. When I felt wronged or alone, because I was focused again on what I wasn’t being included in with friends, I would bring out my notepad and declare God’s truth over me until the lie lost its hold on me. It was well over a year of training my mind to really believe God's truth.
Forgiveness Sets You Free.
I needed to forgive myself for not being whole in this area, my friends for not living up to my standards, and for failing to trust God before this. I had to learn to think the best of those around me. Most of life’s hurts and offenses are a lie the enemy has convinced you to believe. Being mindful of that lie will set you free to live life unoffended.
Through saying yes to God’s request not to run, I chose to let the Holy Spirit heal me and embody truth in this area of my life. It took about two years, but now I have lots of good friends including my friend from the story.